Remember.

Its better to embrace moments, in the spire of their presence
To feel them and preserve them, observe with every sense
Because these moments are special, above totality
They dont need logics and opinions, any rationality
Secure them in your mind, impartial of the unseen
Or soon you'll find them in the ruins of what could have been
Life is what you make of it, its your history
Keep wishing for what could have been and you'll be caught up in your misery
The pain you feel now is not of the terrible things you remember
But for all the good memories in the midst you've surrendered
Youll need a lot of hatred to be on the brink of disaster
But only one good memory to get through what comes after
So when you're forced to hate yourself, hold on to what you love
And you'll be carved a way through the world, to the heavens above.

Insane Anyway

Glance in my eyes and feel my pain
that awaits in my eyes with emotions insane
a million times, and yet again
i'll tell my story a zillion chains
with music notes rhyme words of heart
and today vital signs die and start
i live the life now anyway
though it drowns with lonesome tears every day
everybroken piece of pasts mirror i feel those memories, so truely clear
i missed my chances though everyones just late
i regret waiting my whole life for this hopeless fate
touch my heart and sorrows shall melt
you will unfold the ladder of which's existence never felt
it leads to the dreamland where days i spent
thats one place where my laughter defends
i may still be hopeful, i'm guilty indeed
i regret opening doors unknowning of where they lead
truthfully its crystal clear the death notes i could never tear
i'll tell my topic to audience none
i'll repeat my story, the only one
and insanity is escape with laughter eyes may shine
i wont search the heavens or happiness divine
i'll cry and scream untill i have nothing to say
but i'll look at you and move on anyway. 
10-06-2007